October 4, 2009

Still Sick...

I have had a fever for six days. I am weak and exhausted. I've had horrible headaches daily. I'm getting really tired of being sick.

I'm supposed to go to work tomorrow. There are things I need to do before I take three weeks off, but it's my job's policy that I not return until I've gone 24 hours without fever. I don't want to risk getting my coworkers sick.

I hadn't told my bosses my diagnosis, but at this point I think it's necessary. I sent them an email explaining that I most likely have H1N1 and asking if they would like me to report to work tomorrow. I'm still waiting for their reply.

My fiance and my family don't want me to drive. On Friday I decided to run an errand and knocked the driver-side mirror off my car before I made it out of the driveway. Probably a sign I shouldn't be behind the wheel...

This is just getting out of hand. I need my life back. I need to get better. There are only six days until the wedding.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you're sick, but I don't have a lot of sympathy for you overall. I am disheartened by the message of your blog- namely, that women with vulvodynia will have this forever (the basic implication behind many of your posts). You and "themadpeach" (another "pity party blogger", as I like to call your type) are spreading a really horrible message to all sufferers of of this condition. Yes, it is difficult to fix this. No denying it. But to sufferers like myself and others who may come across this blog (usually by accident), the message you put forward only increases existing feelings of despair. There is enough crap online about this disease being a "forever" thing. Many people who hear that type of thing get so depressed, that some are driven to suicide (I've come pretty close many times myself because I believed I'd never get well- a message reinforced by blogs such as yours) People *do* overcome this- sometimes completely. But that's not the message people will learn from reading the stuff you post.

I don't know how you ended up with the title of "Top Health Blogger". Quite frankly, you don't deserve it, for all the negativity you spread. And the slang terms you use to describe vulvovaginal anatomy are pretty degrading, IMO. The parts have proper names. Use them!

I'm going to go off now and try to recover from my illness. I will not let the bullshit you write get me down. I've had enough of people who have nothing better to do than spread untruths this disease.


Anonymous said...

Um, wow. Don't let that first Anonymous post get you down. I find your blog to be very inspiring. I've looked at a lot of blogs dealing with chronic pain conditions and I find yours to be very positive over all.

I really think that first person hasn't read your blog very thoroughly. You don't wallow in pity or misery; you simply speak about the challenges you face every day. I think you are a very strong person who has worked hard to not let a disease take over your life. Hearing you speak about about your sex life and how you keep it going with such a difficult condition is really reassuring, IMHO.

Please don't let that person or your illness get you down. I think you are an inspiration.

Esther said...

I have been thinking of you since that last post and I hope you get better soon! UGH, flu! At least it will pass. And I know you want the wedding to go well, but don't think you have to be superwoman about it ;) It will be fine and I'm sure you have a ton of people around you to help you get ready. Please make sure you're taking care of yourself first and asking others for help...

Oooh, I see the first commenter wrote about me! How rad! And how brave of her to post her name too...

How are we not working towards answers, seeing doctors all the time? Trying our best to keep up with our lives? Is it our fault that OVERCOMING isn't our story -- YET? What a fool.

Do not listen to her, Quinn. Your blog has given me so much comfort. Yours was the first blog I started reading and it was then that I finally felt not alone.

Quinn said...

Thank you ladies for your support and kind words. I really appreciated it.

Mattenylou said...

Wow! I hope you are feeling better soon so you can enjoy that special day coming up! Yikes! Get lots of rest in the meantime, and then have a wonderful Wedding Day!

Don't give another thought to that poster above... I don't think you're spreading any horrible messages... you just say it like it is! The pain we suffer each and every day, every minute, sometimes, *IS* hard to live with.... and it sucks, but we go on making the changes in our lives to do so.

I love reading your blog... It makes me giggle, sometimes, because I feel the same way, some days muttering-sputtering, and other days just pasting on a smile and going forth in life.

Anonymous, if you don't like what people write in their blogs, don't read them... or start one of your own, with your point of view. If you really have this pain, I can't see that you couldn't totally relate to what Quinn writes about. I've experienced almost everything she has, over the last 15 years, dealing with Pudendal Neuropathy. It sucks... and she's just telling it like it is. I've been to 64 doctors, each one sending me on to someone else that can maybe help my situation. There's no cure for damage nerves after all this time, so I have learned to just do the best I can and enjoy life to the fullest, sometimes for only an hour at a time, if that's what my body allows.

Quinn, have a wonderful time at your wedding, I'll have you in my thoughts and prayers.

...and thanks for writing this blog, I truly appreciate it.