August 6, 2011

Vacation without the O

Since I started nursing school, it's been very difficult for me to keep track of the days.  Now I can't keep track of the season.  It does not feel like summer to me.  I saw a back to school commercial and it confused me.  I thought for a moment that I was in the middle of the school year already.  No such luck. 

I survived eight weeks of hell, taking OB and Peds with shreds of my sanity.  This semester is supposed to be easier, but I'm doubtful knowing that I'm taking four classes, have two days of clinical, and I'm trying to work one 12 hour shift a week at the hospital.  

The stress of school has had a detrimental impact on my sex drive.  I'm so busy and so tired when my husband gets home that sex is the furthest thing from my mind.  The handful of times we did have sex during this crazy semester something was missing... 

That same thing was also missing when I spent some quality time with myself...

No O!

I thought once the semester ended, my orgasm would come back, but it didn't.  I feel frustrated and dysfunctional.  (More so than usual)  I started looking at other potential contributing factors to my lack of orgasm. 

The long days at the hospital were exacerbating my pudendal neuralgia so I started taking 1200 mg Q3 instead of 900 mg of Neurontin.  It seemed to help, but was the higher dose quieting the orgasm nerve signals as well as the pain signals?

I don't know, but I've decided to scale back down to 900 mg and see what happens.  I was even more motivated to scale back when I remembered that I was taking the highest dose possible.  If my pain were to get worse, I would have no choice but to try other drugs.  I'd rather have the comfort of knowing I can always go higher.