March 17, 2008
I was watching a health documentary over the weekend on the nervous system. Naturally, the topic of pain was addressed. I couldn't handle hearing about how pain can be beneficial and how pain can be turned off in times of extreme trauma. My pain doesn't turn off. My pain isn't beneficial.
Every time I heard the word pain, I grew more and more agitated. I eventually had to change the channel. I realized then how much I hated the word pain. I resent that word for what it connotes in my own life.
In case you haven't noticed, I make a point to find funny words to substitute for vagina. That's another word I don't particularly like. The substitutions add some much needed levity to the topic of vulvodynia. Perhaps it's time for me to find some better words for pain. I went to thesaurus.com and couldn't find anything better.
Frankly, a lot of those words seem even worse than pain: agony, anguish, torment...
Ultimately, I realized what I really wanted was to have vulvodynia without pain. But no matter what word I use, silly or serious, at the end of the entry, I'm still in pain.
March 11, 2008
I had about 5 good days. That's remarkable. It's been rough lately. Sandwiching those 5 days are two different yeast infections.
The first yeast infection began the day after I spent 30 minutes on the elliptical machine and 30 minutes weight training. By the following afternoon I felt like I had a yeast infection. It took me a little while to figure out the cause, but I'm fairly confident that it was the extensive (at least for me) workout.
This is an embarrassing topic, even for me, but I think my sweaty hatchet wound caused the yeast infection. I don't normally have a problem with lady sweat. Except in the summer, but who doesn't then? I also haven't been in the habit of working out EVER, so this is pretty new to me.
My suspicions were confirmed a week later when I developed what appeared to be another yeast infection after dancing for 3 hours straight at a wedding. My baby cannon got ridiculously sweaty that night.
I know, this is gross. What can I say? It's a topic I need to address.
So now, I'm a mere 10 days away from a tropical vacation and I need to stay fit. I want to go back to the gym, but I'm worried about making this latest yeast infection, that developed yesterday, worse. I certainly don't want to be flared, but I don't want to undo all my hard work to get in shape.
I've been trying to find something that could help to keep my kitty dry. I don't want to use anything with chemicals because most likely I would end up with a flaming honey pot. I'm going to try powder first. I have baby powder and I also found a Vagisil powder. Hopefully one of those will do the trick without making anything worse.